Back to December

また１首Taylorからの歌です。
これもアタシの心の声ように。。

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good; busier than ever
Small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Cause the last time you saw me
Still burns in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying
I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missin' you
Wishing I'd realized what I had to blow that night
And I go back to December, turn around
And make it all right
I go back to December all the time
These days I haven't been sleepin'
Stayin' up playing back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed
And I didn't call, then I think about summer
All the beautiful times,
I watched you laughin' from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came
With the dark days when the fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying
I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missin' you
Wishing I'd realized what I had to blow that night
And I go back to December, turn around
And change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms
That September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again, I swear I¡¯d love you right
I¡¯d go back in time and change it but I can¡¯t
So if the chain is on your door I understand
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying
I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missin' you
Wishing I'd realized what I had to blow that night
And I go back to December, turn around
And make it all right
I go back to December all the time
I go back to December, turn around
And change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
All the time

かつて　あの人を傷つけました。。
歌詞のように、
"You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was goodbye"

ずっと謝らなかった、自分の口で。。
言わなかった。。。自分のせいなのに。。

歌詞と違うのは、
戻りたいの思いはありません。。。

ねえ、ごめん。。
アタシは勝手すぎ。。
勝手にシグナルをあげて、勝手に付き合ってって言った、
勝手に別れって言った。。

いつも自分のことばかり、
あなたの気持ちが全然無視だ。。

ごめんなさい。。